lupin5th | Entries tagged with adhd

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yashas-strong-arms:

it’s so stupid, adhd is a dozen vaguely related neuroses in a trench coat, including such popular hits as

Can’t Fucking Sleep Disorder

Can’t Fucking Wake Up Disorder

What Is A Focus

Oops I Did It* Again (*Spent Thirteen Hours On Youtube And Forgot To Eat Or Drink)

The World Is Too Noise Today

All My Friends Hate Me (I Deduced This From A Three Word Text)

I Forgot About [thing] Literally As Soon As I Turned Around

…and they decided to call it Trouble Sitting Still Disorder?????

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theactualcluegirl:

alarajrogers:

down-with-the-boogeoisie:

ADHD Moods: A Collection

* Bored.

* move move move move move move move move move

* “What month is it again?”

* SHIT

* “Aren’t you supposed to leave at 3:00?” “Yeah but it’s only like 1:30 I’ve got time” “Dude it’s like 2:57” “FUCK”

* Focus level: non-existent

* Focus level: EXTREME

* “Listen I know you told me to do this thing and explained it three times already but could you maybe explain it again”

* “I forgot”

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* I had three assignments due today and I forgot about all of them kill me

* The face you make when a NT tells you to “just write it down”

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* “Can I touch your stim toy?” “NO”

* It’s been 14 hours since I ate bc I forgot

* It’s been 38 hours since I ate bc I forgot

* “iF it wAs imPoRTanT yoU wOuLd’Ve rEmeMbeReD iT”

* “When the hell was the last time I showered?”

* Yes I know I need to calm down but THEYRE TALKING ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATION OVER THERE

* MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE MOVE

* I’m hungry but all I want is strawberry jello

* Too Much™

You know what they don’t have that is desperately needed, is resources for old people who always had ADHD but they had coping mechanisms, which are now failing because they’re getting old.

Like, there is stuff out there for kids, lots of it! Which is great! And nowadays a lot of stuff out there for young adults, which is fantastic because young adults and their issues with ADHD were being seriously underserved by the psychiatric community.

But here I am, relating to all these ADHD posts because I’m 50 and overworked and I can’t pay attention to anything anymore unless it’s either my special interest or omg clowns will eat me if i don’t, and I lose time hardcore now, and all the strategies I used to use no longer work because I can’t use sugar as a stimulant drug, I’m diabetic now, and I can’t caffeinate myself into a state of focus, overcaffeination just triggers restless legs syndrome while I’m awake, and I used to have enormous mental processing power that I could throw at things but the wheels grind slower and slower now, and I can’t stay up late to get stuff done past midnight when no one will distract me and my mind is at its best, because physical exhaustion pulls me down hours before that so I never get to the time when my mind works its best because I can’t function anymore without like 10-11 hours of sleep, which I don’t get because I ache all over and my arms go numb while I’m sleeping and I have to get up and go to the bathroom five times a night.

Like, some of this is old age bullshit, but what it’s doing to me is it’s destroying all the means I had for hiding my inability to control my focus, and making me look like a giant idiot. I need to know, what can I do to fix this, and I need resources that take into account the fact that I am 50 years old and my issues do not revolve around school or low-paid entry level jobs but in fact I’m expected to function as a technical expert, when I’m walking around in a haze of unfocus all the time.

T. H. I. S.

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naamahdarling:

candidlyautistic:

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ladymdej:

candidlyautistic:

That autistic / ADHD feel when you want to do… something.

I call this “activity cravings” because it’s like when you want a certain food but you aren’t sure which food. But for activities.

Do I want to go for a walk? Play a game? If so, what kind of game? DO I want to make things? Read? Watch tv? A movie?

then when that executive dysfunction comes into play and since you could do literally anything in the world, you end up trapped and unable to choose anything to do at all, and do nothing instead but live in that restlessness

One of the best additions to this post yet. This is one of those nuances of choice paralysis that people fail to understand - sometimes it is because we lack the executive function to choose, sometimes we want to do all the things and can’t choose.

….When parents tell you to clean your room because you came to them and said you’re bored, this is why that FUCKING SUCKS, right???

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fuckingconversations:

pazdispenser:

CBC made a good documentary on adult ADHD and part of it really caught me off guard because i swear they repeated verbatim my life story for the past 3 years

full programme here:

http://www.cbc.ca/natureofthings/episodes/adhd-not-just-for-kids

My ADHD manifested in excellent in-class work. Excellent understanding in discussions. Excellent participation.

My ADHD manifested in piles of homework left undone until the last possible minute, while I stared at them, thinking; “I want to get these done. I understand the theory. It would take 10 minutes. I want to start, why can’t I start?”

My ADHD manifested in fantastic reading comprehension - nigh impenetrable focus on interesting topics the first time I’m reading about them.

My ADHD manifested in a complete inability to focus on reviews or re-reads, mind skittering sideways and away whenever anything was boring or repetitive. I sat down to study, my books open, my eyes on the text, and my brain clawing its way out the back of my head to focus on something else - anything else. Focus, focus! [No.]

My ADHD manifested in Articulating wings half-finished but still beautiful, in beautiful lineart and half-hearted coloring. In stories written passionately for days until I forgot it existed and never returned. In projects started and forgotten and started and forgotten a thousand times until my bins of project supplies piled up and my bank account shriveled down. No, it will be different this time - I LOVE this new thing. This new thing is my world, my destiny, my Everything. I CREATE and CREATE and CREATE and never FINISH.

My ADHD manifested in confusion and surprise as time slithered away, hours passing like minutes and minutes seeming endless by contrast. An inability to gauge how much time had passed, was left, a task would take. An inability to hold dates in my head, because time didn’t feel consistent or even real.

My ADHD manifested in watching someone talk and not understanding a word they said - literally hearing sounds and translating out only nonsense. In thoughts so loud I couldn’t speak coherently. In a conversation across the room shattering an idea I was trying to hold. It’s hard to think when you’re already thinking about everything around you.

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lauramkaye:

dewgem:

it concerns me that people really don’t know that adhd isn’t a personality type or behavioral problem.

adhd isn’t someone who’s personality is driven by fun and disorder.

adhd is someone who’s brain goes all over the place looking for dopamine, because it doesn’t make or register enough of it, and when it finds a source of dopamine, it hyperfixates on it. it’s about deregulation of attention as well as emotions.

it’s not a person who can’t behave. a person with adhd can look like a lot of things. misconceptions about what adhd looks like kept me from even looking for a diagnosis, and it also kept myself and others (professionals, even) from taking my suspicions seriously.

everyone’s encouraged to reblog, but if you don’t have adhd, keep your additions to the tags.

Smart people can have ADHD. And a lot of the time, they compensate for the ADHD with intelligence- until they reach the point where they just can’t overcome it anymore, which is why a lot of gifted + ADHD people have good grades their whole lives and then “suddenly” crash and burn. For some it’s college, for some it’s grad school, for some it’s postgrad or professional exams like the bar. Whenever the things they have to do can no longer be brute-forced at the last minute.

ADHD is often lumped in with learning disabilities but it’s really a DOING disability. We know what we should do. Probably we know six ways to do it. The trouble is actually getting our brains to activate so we CAN do it. Sometimes it’s like you’re being controlled by aliens or something because you say “I need to do X” and you’re going to do it and you just. Don’t.

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myadhdlife:

myadhdlife98:

Important

If more people knew these thing were symptoms I would have been diagnosed and helped earlier!

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well here’s what it’s like for me

feeling like you need to Do Shit All The Time

like, literally every second

if you aren’t stimulated for even a second you’re incredibly bored

boredom is literally painful

it’s worse than death

worse than e v e r y t h i n g

feelin that sweet Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria™ any time you get teased or insulted

when you’re listening to music you always tune it out eventually

not picking up on social cues At All

actually, what are social cues?

can’t regulate attention

not interesting = not worth paying attention to

hyperfocus for hours

“wAIT ITS 4 PM WHAT THE F U C K”

did i forget to eat again

The Thoughts go from point a to point g in less than one (1) fuckin sentence

*someone says a thing* what *person repeats thing* what *person repeats thing again and you still don’t hear them but dont ask what again in case they think ur weird*

or, alternatively

*someone says a thing* what *person starts to repeat said thing; you reply less than a second after they start*

using subtitles all the time so you don’t have to go back twenty times to determine What The Fuck someone said

“sorry i tuned you out for that entire sentence can you repeat that”

needing e x t r e m e l y s p e c i f i c d i r e c t i o n s

EXTREMELY POOR VOLUME CONTROL TBH

tfw that thing u were working on falls apart and u cant redo it bc u already did it and that would be boring

long blocks of text are Extremely Hard to Read

ur fuckin brain works 12 times as fast as everyone elses. for every ADHD person it’s somethin different. for me it’s puns. ill choke on my own laughter at a pun an Entire Second before anyone else even gets it

RAMBLING

The Leg Bounce™

Disassociation

that ADHD feel when you

^^ that one is a True Marker of an ADHD person. only ADHD people understand.